Venting

Copied from my Facebook post:
I have been encouraged to change my name in order to escape undeserved judgement, threats and continued terrorism after having my entire life and experiences professionally raped from me over time by a connected group, including members of my own family; all of whom have been professionally prepped for defense.  My own sister and brother showed up at my door on Easter with nieces I have never even met...not lovingly motivated...strategically motivated.  My sister and I had a conversation in which she showed me a book that she has published under her new name, as well as letting me know that she has several more coming out.  I picked up the book and noticed that it completely mimicked my own writing, my ideas and descriptions.  I express my ideas out loud and give speeches, and sing at home (I have done this for many years) for my own stress relief.  Has anybody ever seen me auditioning for American Idol? No.  I do it because it feels good.  As I have expressed over and over again, my house and car have been bugged.  As she was describing her near 'carbon copy' of my own situation, she forcefully informed me that was she is surrounded by loyal friends and support, knowing that those she is supported by are the same people who have been trying to destroy my identity, fueled by lies and cover-up.  She made some remarks that were repeating 'verbatim' various statements that I have made in the privacy of my own bedroom...statements you would not be privy to unless you were listening to what is being bugged.  She performed' a story of her experiences in front of me in a 'mocking' manner.   I am a wonderful person.  I never deserved this, neither have my children.  I feel like I have lived through a sick, psychological thriller.  I will speak up for myself.  These people have arrogantly all settled into well-timed, arranged situations for the benefit of one big illusion while I have been left stripped and tied to the mast of an abandoned ship, mocked accordingly.  About a year ago, I was told by someone involved that this was to be the biggest conspiracy ever but the plan was abandoned.  I know the reason is that many of the people involved came to care about me, as well as the fact that I started putting it all together. I am no enemy to anyone.  There is good reason I am not close with my family and former In-Laws and just because I rarely spoke of them, rather than 'trashing' them (though I was strategically lured into specific commentary by those involved here), does not make their self-serving lies true. I have allowed rumors, cued, manipulative 'friends' who seem as innocent as could be and high-end, Hollywood-constructed lies and set-ups to dominate throughout this process, though an acute awareness has resided inside of me the entire time.  I have watched them all 'clean up' in simultaneous action, all in place with character alibis and organized, strategic community connection while the last decade of my life has been 'lined' with a 'witnessed' chronology of illusion character.  I even wrote a poem several years ago that described being 'frozen' during a heavy ascent...this is what I have felt throughout this process...indescribably 'frozen', like a paralyzed person with no voice being repeatedly raped, then buried alive, all the while trying to manage 2 sons who were being psychologically manipulated, pulled into this campaign of hate while I was kept busy at work for years.  My younger son, who has Asperger's Syndrome, was used politically and in other ways I don't think I can come to grips with yet. He was given brand new devices that were preloaded with what I would call 'hate fare', cult material and biographies of serial killers...anyone who understands Asperger's understands what happens when a subject is focused on...it becomes breakfast, lunch and dinner of the mind.  This was done in order to establish the illusion that my son has been influenced by hate within our home and to establish an obsessive interest in these subjects.  This is what any average observer would witness and assume and this was the motivation.  I was pressured throughout that time to 'respect' that he was interested in these subjects and criticized and pressured for being judgmental and controlling by wanting to keep this material from him.  The men who came into my life during this time were all of similar, odd genius and strategically 'connected'.  My sons were lied to about me over and over again, using conditioning and 'illusion' to support the lies during their most impressionable years and now, strategically in place, as insurance, to aid the 'sting' against their own mother.   I have been professionally set up to look like the perpetrator (even deliberately lured in conversations to say things about certain people in order to create an illusion that I am a gossip, all to draw more audience hate before the big 'take down'), all to mask that I have been the victim.  My ideas and my family's intellectual property have been raped from us while I have been set up to look like a copycat in a hundred fake ways that very powerful people can maneuver and make seem as real as real can be.  I was 'set up' to react to certain deliberate stimuli in order that I would burn certain bridges so I would become alone, ripe for hate mob.  I was told lies about many people I was close with. I was supposed to be broken down and 'crazy' by now from all of the torture, but I am strong and alive, motivated to survive and my mind is sharper than it has ever been.  The financial backing for this attack has been limitless and motivated politically, as well as religiously.  My sister also told me that she is now Jewish and in an intensely strange 'checkmate' tone, she said, "I never accepted Jesus as my Savior, you know.  For us, this is Passover'.  She thinks I don't understand the power of the roads we choose but ironically, the road that has been delivered to me has opened understanding that allows my spirit to 'pass over' every psychological secret game in the deck of control.    Mind you, I have not seen  my sister in years, nor have I been focused on her or anything about her.  I have 'googled' a few people once in a while, like anyone but I have never researched, stalked or followed ANYONE, especially my own family.  I wanted nothing more than my own new life and if these criminals hadn't have circumferenced my life for so long, I would have had the opportunity to meet someone special and remarry.  Instead, my ex-husband and his family, along with mine, have attacked and controlled, even in that department.    I generously tried to reconnect with my sister twice and even sent her a box with special cookies, but heard nothing back so I let go knowing that I had tried, even though it was me who ended the relationship. There are many people who have much to hide and this has also been turned around on me.  I am not crazy or paranoid, though there has been a massive attempt to establish this, including under-the-radar torture online, through the State System, and every time I leave my house.  I live in a small town and the under the radar, deliberate 'jabs' and treatment I receive socially is enough to make anyone else run and cry and want to die.  Eventually, public 'freak outs' occur, as planned, and credibility is meant to be destroyed in the process.  Those who have coordinated this attack have maneuvered like one, big, leechy organism of war, for warsake.  I am for peacesake.  I have heard so many comments about family and how much family matters.  I believe this and I look forward to having family one day.  I will not change my name.  Michelle Pisciotta is my name and it is as lucky and true as I am. Even though it's been hard to even get out of bed these days, I will stand.